Recently, singer, songwriter and actress Lady Gaga opened up about her traumatic experience that happened to her when she was younger.

Lady Gaga reveals a heavy load in Oprah Winfrey and Prince Harry’s Apple TV+ series “The Me That You Can’t See” pilot episode. She shared that at 19 years old she was raped by a music producer and became pregnant from it. It lead her to a “total psychotic break”. 

The Assault

She tells us that at the beginning of her music career, an unnamed producer told her to take of her clothes, “I said, ‘No,’ and I left”, but they threatened that they were going to burn all her music. “And they didn’t stop. They didn’t stop asking me, and then I just froze. I don’t even remember,” she said. “And I will not say his name”. she said she understands the Me Too movement. “I understand that some people feel really comfortable with this, and I do not. I do not ever want to face that person again.”

Gaga becomes emotional as she recalls her past. She said she experienced pain for years after the assault.

“First, I felt full-on pain. Then I went numb,” she said. “And then I was sick for weeks and weeks and weeks and weeks after, and I realized that it was this same pain that I felt when the person who raped me dropped me off pregnant on the corner, my parents’ house, because I was vomiting and sick because I’d been… abused. I was locked away in a studio for months.”

PTSD Years Later

 In 2016, the pop-star got diagnosed with PTSD. At one point, she said she “was no the same girl”, she couldn’t feel her body for a while. This lead her to self-harm and have sucidal tendencies. When she won an Oscar for her movie “A Star is Born” in 2018 is what helped her kickstart her healing process. She admits her healing process has been a “slow rise” over the years. 

Gaga ends the interview with saying “It’s brave to breathe,”.. “It’s braver to keep going… There’s nothing wrong with you. But there is something that’s not firing right. And that’s something you’ve got to pay attention to … It’s not easy.” 

You can catch the full interview and learn more about the star during “The Me You Can’t See” pilot episode on Apple TV+.